Honestly? October can go to hell. Oh wait, it ALREADY IS HELL.
This month has been a major suckfest. I mean I haven't felt this bad since my mom died. Granted, this has NOTHING on that but I can now officially say 2009 is the worst year SINCE my mom died.
I started 2009 by having my bank account drained by a fuck up of my father and his business partner. Over a year of saving and working gone in ONE DAY.
After finding that out, I got the FLU and the COLD and BELLS PALSY, look it up, at the same time due to stress finally destroying my immunity to everything under the sun.
Summer was shit as I only had one job, that was the LIGHT side.
School starts up, and I gear up to take on job applications for schools. This is where merry old October comes in. My first job app which I had so much faith in because I have an inside on it turns out to be a lemon. My first interview with a school is fucked because the WEEK I schedule it I lose my voice to a throat infection, missing key days at work. That's money lost I can't make back. This month alone my car which is my only bit of transport and freedom has been damaged TWICE. The first is a hit and run that left a cosmetic damage on the side of it. I never pressed charges because the act would've cost me more than just going out to have it beaten back into shape. But then tonight.. or rather last night seeing as how today is officially the 31st, on my way home I hit a DOG.
A FUCKING MID-LARGE SIZED WHITE FLUFFY DOG THAT PROBABLY BELONGED TO SOME SMALL CHILD WHO LOVED IT DEARLY.
Look up 98 Honda Accords and you'll see the fender. See that thin part on the bottom just below the license plate? Yeah that's broken the fuck off. Only way to replace that is to replace the fucking bumper. The entire fuck bumper. Sure, it's cosmetic, but now I feel that if my car were a human it'd have a missing tooth and a busted leg.
I turned a white fluffy dog into pizza and my car is further damaged, and I can't exactly go out and buy a new one. And what gets me? No one stopped me, they just kept going like I didn't just wipe an existence off the face of the earth. I've never killed anything bigger than a wasp before, and I just went and killed man's best friend in cold blood.
So let's review. MAJOR ILLNESSES. MONEY LOST. CAR DAMAGED. MURDERER. Goddammit, I need a stiff drink. >_<
So yeah, if my mood is shit for the next couple days? This is why.